I wrote this song about the many issues I felt were stacking on top of me, and backing me into a corner every day, battling those problems, and making sure I come out on top at the end of it all. I really hope you all love it!
I've been homesick, tryna find a way back
My heart ain't in the place that I stay at
Motherfuckers try to blame me, and get mad,
like I left 'em behind, as if I even wanted that
Try to understand me...
theres a lot of agony, hidden shit you can't see
I been wanting lots of things that I know can't be
I'm just gettin lots of hate for what life hands me
Thats what I'm going through now
I really miss my old house, but they're tearing it down
Miss my home town, but I'm states away,
in a house that I stay and we can't even pay
I been stuck inside my room...
no friends, no job. I got nothing to do
And seeing people have fun is like salt in the wound
Feel like givin' up is something I'mma have to do soon
Never thought I'd miss comin' to class
but this fuckin' hell I'm in got me wanting it back
My doubts and second thoughts are really fuckin' startin' to stack,
feel like lifes a fuckin' race and I'm coming in last
But I won't let it happen
I've come too far to be givin' up rappin
I hope you're strapped in, I'mma give it my all
i ain't throwin' in the towel, it's an all out brawl
It don't matter what, whether I fly or I fall,
I'm not giving up, you ain't ever taking my ball
'Cause I'm winnin' the game, I'm in all of the lanes..
so I guess you could say that my drive is insane
I didn't pick this fuckin' hand I was dealt,
so holding it against me doesn't lend any help
I have a lot of doubts I'm not worried about
'cause now I'm closer to the clouds than I am to the ground
released August 18, 2017
Instrumental produced by Inhansed
Mixed by Asylum 213, check him out! - asylum213.bandcamp.com
Ending breakdown - Asylum 213
Instrumental contains samples from Deuce's "Do You Think About Me?"