You didn't want me to go But I been begging to leave When we call on the phone I never feel me I hate when we're both alone But I feel so insecure I can't take it no more I think it's time to leave It's hard to part ways but I'm thinkin' that its best Lookin' back on older days, you were actin' like I'm less Been tryna' find a place inside my heart or my chest To finally bury whats left and put the feelings to rest From the start I shoulda' knew, everything that you would do I'd either be a punching bag or the one you'd abuse I wasn't equal to you, you'd remind me everyday You would go outta your way just to rain on my parade I was stupid to stay, I be the first to admit it But it can never take away all the hurt I was feeling When you would call me at night. We would bitch about life Tried to help you every time you say you needed advice I was tryna' do right, you'd rather leave me on the ground Every time I built you up you were tearing me down Wow... I've thought about apologizin' to you, But it only makes me realize; there ain't nothin' it would do You didn't want me to go But I been begging to leave When we call on the phone I never feel me I hate when we're both alone But I feel so insecure I can't take it no more I think it's time to leave But I believe that you loved me, I honestly do You'd always do sweet things when it was just me and you But when an audience was there, you started latching on to Any ammo you could use just to heighten ya mood I mean... all the hurtful, awful, shit you would say They're the strings you would play with my heart everyday I'd just have to sit and wait until next day came When you would take all the blame and then you'd beg me to stay I started crushing one day, it wasn't right off the bat Nah I loved you as a friend 'fore I saw you like that Going back to your place and I was telling my feelings And then you laughed in my face, you called me ugly. It's demeaning How you treated me, you would just flip so easily One day you're feeling me, next day we seem to be Sworn forever enemies, for another couple weeks If this is how it's gonna be I guess it means I'm gonna leave You didn't want me to go But I been begging to leave When we call on the phone I never feel me I hate when we're both alone But I feel so insecure I can't take it no more I think it's time to leave You didn't want me to go But I been begging to leave When we call on the phone I never feel me I hate when we're both alone But I feel so insecure I can't take it no more I think it's time to leave

Fuck it, I'mma snap, it go deeper than rap Put rappers on blast, you get beat or adapt Put my hair all plat, need the tracks to match With my name on plaques, while I'm raking in racks But I'm too bomb-bastic, and too damn average I'm too fed up to be two cents grasping And these fake fucks want me grab bad habits While not on my level, so I sit back laughing Plot my own schemes, never changin' for me You can talk behind scenes, no complainin' from me But I hope you can see what I'm claiming to be Is a fact to the T, ain't no faking from me Ain't no time for the bullshit, that stops now Remember days when kids would play 'n I would never come out Was afraid of the conflict now I'm seeking it out There's no fuckin' way to stop it, ain't it kinda funny how When I first started out you were Talkin' down, Talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now, talkin' now When I first started out you were Talkin' down, talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now Motherfuckers showin' up, they tryin' befriending me You ain't heard the news bitch? I got nothin' but enemies Yeah, Foul Mouth, we don't fuck with suits, they pretend to see Trick a kid for they embassy, tryna' snuff out a legacy I'm in the lab all by myself But nobody listened to "By Myself" So I'm sat with the bottle like "a nine might help" Put the barrel to my head, let it shine my scalp I don't fuck with these rappers, the lot of 'em ain't gonna blow But I gotta make it, they hate cause they know Won't check your tape when you're on the pay roll Thought I told you bitches I'm a menace, I meant the shit Old homies back-stab, tell me it's for my benefit Motherfuckers talkin' down, I'ma eat 'em like venison No incentive, incentive-less, bitch I do it, it's effortless When I first started out you were Talkin' down, Talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now, talkin' now When I first started out you were Talkin' down, talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now Motherfucker why you think you God but you ain't Get Splatooned, I'mma roll up with the paint X and Drew we ain't leaders in the game But we known to breakthrough, when we takin' different lanes I really don't think you could stand a chance Or manage the damn damage I give in advance To motherfuckers hatin' thinkin' they can throw in they hands When they punches never land like Michael's backyard ranch 'Bout to flip the game like, "fuck this shit" No Rich Chig, I'mma pull up with a stick Life's a bitch, but I'm flippin' the script On these motherfuckers thinkin that they got it in grips We ain't tight so you paint me in a bad light Ya act ain't nice, take it, I'm a playwright You just wanna bitch and you always wanna make fights Looking back on it now I just wanna say, I First started out, you were Talkin' down, Talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now, talkin' now When I first started out you were Talkin' down, talkin' down But now I'm right here you ain't Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now

Don't act like you know All that I've been through You always throwing them low blows Just know that I see you Rest assured, we'll always be foes Attention feeds you That's why you throw them low blows Them low blows People talk shit when you're already down Evil fucks who toxic, but think that they profound But they never want no problems, once I come around Got new found respect, they ain't making a sound Motherfuck a damn snake, I got too much on my plate To be stopping for the problems that they all tryna' make My fates at stake, I been tryna' create A little something outta nothing, so get out my fuckin' way I see the motives that you tryna hide when you do it Cause commotion but you fuckin' lying, I can prove it I can read everything. You don't mean anything To my life, so at night when you plot them petty things You just wasting your time, man I'm still gonna shine I don't need your validation. Bitch I'm making life mine You just wastin' steady hatin' take in this as a sign You obsessing over someone you ain't ever fucking liked, so Don't act like you know All that I've been through You always throwing them low blows Just know that I see you Rest assured, we'll always be foes Attention feeds you That's why you throw them low blows Them low blows You can't criticize when you don't even live it Why the fuck am I terrorized by bullshit opinions? You should know you jeopardized any chances of winning I'm fucking livid when I spit it, bet you hear it in the lyrics You been living in the dark, you been swimming with a shark Who's too nice to bite. I don't even wanna bark But I gotta draw a line, so I'm gonna rip apart Anybody tryna' fly who wanna disrespect my heart Motherfuckers cant stand I'm not backing it down From blacked out, cast out, to 'em liking me now Nah I'm not 'spose to laugh doing victory laps But I smashed your ass in half, we can leave it at that You can claim you're holding back; I'm not giving a fuck Went insane, now you're wack; guess your time has been up Played the game, lost the match. Don't bother getting back up Because you've bitten the dust, You're never fuckin' with us, so just Don't act like you know All that I've been through You always throwing them low blows Just know that I see you Rest assured, we'll always be foes Attention feeds you That's why you throw them low blows So so Don't act like you know All that I've been through You always throwing them low blows Just know that I see you Rest assured, we'll always be foes Attention feeds you That's why you throw them low blows Them low, low, blows

Fighting this shit got me frightened and shit Just one drink in, I don't like it I quit Let the light head hit like some life end shit 'Bout five drinks in and I'm losing my grip Who sliding through next? They be sending out a text I just wanna be alone I ain't even getting vexed Way too busy being stressed And I'm feeling like I'm gone Can't feel, I don't know whats real Mind ain't clear feeling like a mine field People keep on pushing so I think I might kneel Will you promise me the power that I need to fight still? I'm drowning scream for someone to save me I doubt it, suffocate me I cant breathe Sink down in my mind, wavy in day dreams No challenge, I'm about it, hook me up, I have to have it Lost in my head while they all gettin' blunted "Take a bit of this fuckin' promise that you'll love it There's your therapist you been fiending you been wanting" You been seekin' now you sinkin' now ya brain start to plummet In a haze, in a blunder, then I start to wonder If it's worth it, is it workin? Takin' days to recover And I'm certain that it's hurtin', feelin' caged for another Painfully stutter, only breaking me further Always gettin' plastered and they promise that it's magic I'm just fuckin' nervous, I don't wanna form a habit Got me feelin' worthless, I'm descent from an addict And I'm sensing all this shit isn't worth it when they pack it I don't wanna be bringing you down But all I ever see, people tellin' me how It's normal for me, while your head ring loud To get it figured out, you gotta drown right now Drown

I been doin' all I can to try to make it back home But the longer that it takes, I just feel more alone There been days I sit and thinking while I'm glued to my phone Y'all are all together, I'll just call and wait at the tone Now I don't wanna drag you down, I don't wanna be a burden Like every time we talk, I just say how I been hurting I been thinking what would happen if I never make it For the sake of both of us I think I'll save it and I'll face it But I'm hating how the odds keep on stacking up against me Don't wanna play the victim, I been seeing y'all with envy Don't know whats gotten in me. Don't understand the way I think 'Cause every time I see you all, posted with some drinks I just feel like no one cares or forgot about me And when I think if I was there it gets to bothering me I should be gettin' to sleep all of these memories sting And I don't wanna take it out and say some shit I don't mean But its the way that I see things, And its the way I process Can't say I've got no shame In the way that I been acting I been stuck inside the same place And I just wanna make some progress (I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts) Well maybe its part of the process I been lookin' in the mirror and I'm making different faces Wonder when I changed here and wishing I could change it Wishing I could reach out to talk about my problems but I do it too often, its annoying and its bothersome I'll leave a message I been thinking bout a lot (Its Drew, whats going on?) I just really need to talk Do you feel the same way that you say that you used to? Have I gotten annoying, am I plague to the friend group? Are you positive you're still wanting me your life? Dog, you all being gone has caused hell through mine I swear I'm not trying to rely on you, that ain't fair But I don't think you'll ever know how much I wanna be there Well I'm here if you ever wanna talk I'm not going anywhere, if I wanted to or not If you feel different I just hope you let me know Before every call I make got me waiting at the tone But its the way that I see things And its the way I process Can't say I've got no shame In the way that I been acting I been stuck inside the same place And I just wanna make some progress (I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts) Well maybe its part of the process

I had a dream that you were back I was at work when I first heard the news I didn't wanna move felt distraught and confused I tried to muster up some kinda ruse or excuse To get myself out of the room once I heard about you It fuckin' hurts lately I've been blaming myself I'm ashamed of what I dealt and never reached out to help None of us knew so I guess you hid it well But I never fuckin' acted like somebody you could tell I was going through the same shit the time that it happened I should've strived for some action, not self satisfaction If I knew I imagine I would've had to reach out But I never fucking did I never opened my mouth To ask how you were doing or to check up on ya Or to fuckin' hang out- damn the last time I saw ya Was at Grace' house, didn't even leave with a hug And now I'm sitting here actin' like I did you enough When we met we were young, I was so fuckin' cruel Left you out of fun every time I'd see you at school And I just wanna cry, now we sayin' goodbye But ever since the night you died I just wish you survived Never apologized for the fuckin' way that I acted We were cool after it happened, but my mind got me captive And I never got to tell you how I thought and I felt I was so fuckin' proud that you were doing so well Lookin' back on it now, I know I always felt bad But now you're not fucking here and there's no taking it back All of us miss you, you're always in our family I failed you every time I made you feel outside or terribly I wish I was the one that could've reached out to save you Had I known before you're gone I could be one you relate to I cant be, I been praying for your family I been praying for your family I had a dream that you were back (I been praying for your family, I been praying for your family) I was paralyzed, cause' you looked at me terrified (Praying for your family, I been praying for your family) My heart was unleashed like no one else (Praying for your family, I been praying for your family) I reminisce and want to kiss, the dirt that turned to dust

('Cause I can't see your faults, but you can see mine Obsession with the past, wanna' rewind You say it takes time and that we'll be fine) At a crossroad now 'cause I'm proud of myself But I'm lost though, down, 'cause I'm doubting myself And I really hate how I've separated myself From anything and everything, so I'm debating some help In a whirlwind caught in the middle of the storm I try to pick a rose and get pricked by a thorn Satan's in the shadows, raising up his horns With a contract to sign, and I'm feeling so torn And my head space is shrouded, everything clouded My brain ain't the same since the day that I found it My name has became something I can't explain But to wrestle this pain is a part of the game It's sadistic and twisted, it takes all momentum And kills it, and fills you with different intentions I'm done with this shit, I'm pullin' the pin And I'm closing the chapter fore story's begin 'Cause I can't see your faults But you can see mine Obsession with the past Wanna' rewind You say it takes time And that we'll be fine And I don't think you're right but We'll make it out alive Said we'll make it out alive And if we don't we tried but We'll make it through the night Said we'll make it out alive Tryna' make it out alive Been stuck in a hole, I was digging it up I gave you my soul and you lifted it up But no matter what, it's never enough Falls back to the soil all severed and crushed Feelings consume me, my life been a movie Began in October, with packing and moving Life passing me truly, waiting on the past Hating on the fact that it changed so fast Now I'm going through tracks, reminisce and looking back Was it ever really different than the place that I'm at? Throw 'em in the trash, final and the scraps No matter which one, to me, everything is bad But I'm done being sad, I'm feeling so drained I wish I could say I was numb to the pain But I know that I'm not, I knew from the start I fall and I fall and I'm falling apart 'Cause I can't see your faults But you can see mine Obsession with the past Wanna' rewind You say it takes time And that we'll be fine And I don't think you're right but We'll make it out alive Said we'll make it out alive And if we don't we tried but We'll make it through the night Said we'll make it out alive Tryna' make it out alive (Make it out alive We can make it through the night) Fuckin' hurts when you're first dealin' with it (Make it out alive) Nothin' worse everything feels different Mind racing, everything is changing (We can make it out alive) Mind vacant, no help to face it And I'm hating, places that I'm in (Tryna' make it through the night) Put myself in and they prey on me again (Make it out alive, we can make it out alive) Always fuckin' hurts and I just wanna see the end Now its only gettin' worse fore the betterment begins 'Cause I can't see your faults But you can see mine Obsession with the past Wanna' rewind You say it takes time And that we'll be fine And I don't think you're right but We'll make it out alive Said we'll make it out alive And if we don't we tried but We'll make it through the night Said we'll make it out alive Tryna' make it out alive