I've been homesick, tryna find a way back My heart ain't in the place that I stay at Motherfuckers try to blame me, and get mad, like I left 'em behind, as if I even wanted that Try to understand me... theres a lot of agony, hidden shit you can't see I been wanting lots of things that I know can't be I'm just gettin lots of hate for what life hands me Thats what I'm going through now I really miss my old house, but they're tearing it down Miss my home town, but I'm states away, in a house that I stay and we can't even pay I been stuck inside my room... no friends, no job. I got nothing to do And seeing people have fun is like salt in the wound Feel like givin' up is something I'mma have to do soon Never thought I'd miss comin' to class but this fuckin' hell I'm in got me wanting it back My doubts and second thoughts are really fuckin' startin' to stack, feel like lifes a fuckin' race and I'm coming in last But I won't let it happen I've come too far to be givin' up rappin I hope you're strapped in, I'mma give it my all i ain't throwin' in the towel, it's an all out brawl It don't matter what, whether I fly or I fall, I'm not giving up, you ain't ever taking my ball 'Cause I'm winnin' the game, I'm in all of the lanes.. so I guess you could say that my drive is insane I didn't pick this fuckin' hand I was dealt, so holding it against me doesn't lend any help I have a lot of doubts I'm not worried about 'cause now I'm closer to the clouds than I am to the ground

[Hook] I live in a constant state of fear and misery Do you miss me anymore? And I don't even notice When it hurts anymore Anymore Anymore Anymore [Verse 1] In these past few months shits been hittin' the fan I gotta chose between my girl, or my dogs and my fam and I don't really wanna move, but theres nothin' I can do when no one understands. I'm alone and confused and I ain't even got a second to do some second guessin' or count a couple blessins, or focus on my lessons I'm under a lotta stress 'n' I'm regrettin' my profession What I really need is a moment of reflection I've been too drained to even write a couple bars While everyones' together im alone on mars I guess I need to open up about these past few months I fuckin' hate growin up and bein stuck in this rut But as much as life sucks and it pushes me down, sometimes I think I'm better off being thrown around 'cause all these shitty moments are just things that lift me I've been gone for a while and I wonder if you missed me [Hook] I live in a constant state of fear and misery Do you miss me anymore? And I don't even notice When it hurts anymore Anymore Anymore Anymore [Verse 2] I'm only positive cause I'm used to the pain and I'm not tryna be edgy man, abuse is a game See, me and my feelings are just one in the same, so when im feelin' real shitty it gets worn on my face I've been so unenthusiastic and my feelins been so drastic that, one day I'm cryin', and the next day im laughin' And recently I'm feelin' like I'm burdaning others Got me hating myself for some reson or another Like I'm leaving my brother, along with my mom and I been stressing to myself 'cause I cant write a new song So when everyone is gone and I'm here all alone I wonder if my new house will feel like home But- when I'm done thinkin' and I let shit get me I remember, shitty moments are just things that lift me and I can roll with punches from the things that hit me I've been gone for a while, and I really hope you missed me [Hook] I live in a constant state of fear and misery Do you miss me anymore? And I don't even notice When it hurts anymore Anymore Anymore Anymore

[Verse 1] People dissapearin' along with the things around me Feelin' like I took the shit as far as God's allowed me I been lost can't find my way, no one ever found me The beat is fuckin' houdning, and I feel like I'm drowning I don't know what it is, man. I think I hit a pitfall Yeah I stand tall but I hate these fuckin' brick walls It's like they're closin' in with every line from this pen Wonder why it's taken months to drop some solo shit again I been sittin in my sins, failures almost all I'm thinkin 'bout and it's cliche' but i really need these demons out Inside I'm screamin' now, cant figure why or how I got this self hate again, and this shit is seepin' out Blurry vision, all I see, are dreams of people killin' me and I can't open up cause i dont know if y'all are feelin' me It only gets harder as long as time goes Sinkin underwater, it feels, as eyes close [Verse 2] And I been thinkin' bout my dad, reminice on what I never had Never saw a hand, but I aint even really fuckin' mad but it's fucked that you picked drugs over love And I don't want a fuckin' thing cause it wont be enough Learn from your past, learn from what you've done This is blunt, but you shoulda' learned from your dead son Layed out on the rocks while you're roamin' in the streets and I wonder what would happen if he ever knew me I just think, honestly, that you're fuckin' embarassed having me for a son. I got you as a parent but... Homie it's apparent, you aint even a father, you're a sperm donor, how you left me and my mama I tried to work it out but fucker I'm done You ruined any chance of even fuckin' knowin your son So dont try to call cause he aint pickin' up the phone Like you've done for my whole life, leave me alone [Verse 3] Now I cant fuckin' breathe and I'm down on my knees Tryin' to get a little bit of air... suffocating It's what this stress has been doin', from the pressure of movin, to the strain of a career, my mind is in ruins And I know I keep on sayin' that I fuckin' hate complainin', but believe me I am real in every one of these statements Can pain be more blantant, do I scream for help? How the fuck do I explain I need saving from myself? Honestly I wanna die. all I see is black and grey It's like everything is night, I can't see the fuckin' day But when I reach a fuckin' page, I put this confidence on, and that's what you're hearin' in these past few songs Cause' it's like I cant begin to fuckin' write about my brain, cause' the thoughts are so sparattic, I delete the fuckin' page I don't need some fuckin' space, I just wanna feel better But I feel like I can't be so here's this open letter

(Graffik) And I don't know why times so cold I'm stepping the same way I been since 9 or 6, but I ain't bring the packing in, said I ain't tryna fill up with a time restriction I really running with this shit but, I ain't worried bout none of you kids and I don't know why times so cold, my life had blown when I set stone I ain't been none of myself huh? you ain't meant a sentence You ain't fooling with this side now, you been a bad example You tell me bout one more thing, I'mma put a gun to my temple Pilling up, doing nice, don't know what's around me I wonder if I found my temper With my hands up, mobbing with a sack of the OG I ain't got no time for this shit, should I be Shaq with a Kobe? Decide the goals, my mind explodes I'm fine when known, I'm lying, I'm broke The sky, look, the sky is gold I might check by, when I might check by, and I Shit Get in my black van, I was different back then ... (Inhansed) She just wanna drink, but I won't let her do it She just wanna talk when I'm lost in the music She just gonna leave when I speak and I think any chance that I had I might've just blew it She don't get my process I'm just running from this nonsense And I'm layin' on the floor, with the homies in the crib, watching every cloud rise when they each take a hit And they wonder, why I won't smoke again They all wonder, when I'm gonna joke again I been torn up for four months I'm trapped now lookin' for an openin' in this shit Feeling pains way better than feelin' like this Never explain, they just cant get the gist Goin' insane cause I hate feelin' like this Fuck.. Back then it was different, no pieces that were missing Just mobbin' with the homies in the whip, while we rolling, and unfolding any problem that I had... Lyrics came to me, happiness drew me Wishing I could have that back But I can't, its been gone, it all left and its been too long... Fuck what they say, and fuck what I think Fuck any fame and the snakes that it bring I don't got time for the phone when it ring, 'cause I wanna be alone, I don't wanna hear a thing I been secluded, I've been down this path before, its getting real now Time goes on as I stare down this long drop without a ground But fuck it, I'mma fuckin' take this quick My life ain't shit if I evade these risks And if I do slip, I'mma own that bitch I'll fuckin' pen it with lyrics and I ain't planning to quit 2017 I been lost in myself I been caught in this hell. Felt dropped but I fell I never feel well when I look at this pen, I wish I was back, back to back then...

(Verse 1) From talking in the hallway, to going on our last date I finally felt great, and honestly felt safe All I could think was how to make you laugh next, or how to surprise you at any chance that I would get Prom night was what really set up the tone, but my Mom got worried and I had to go home Now at night when I lay down and I close my eyes I wonder if it's gonna be the same with your new guy Remember going on dates to eat at Red Yeti? You came over first and we would talk as you got ready or staying at home, we'd lay in bed and complain Told you all of my feelings, and you said you felt the same Stupid to think... but I thought it'd be forever and moving out of state couldn't tell me any better I tried to make it work like "I need to be with you" but then you got distant and you found a new dude but.. (Hook) Time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day I get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling Time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day I get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling (Verse 2) Now you're all I find myself thinkin' about It's like you're stuck inside my mind without a way to get out And I been waiting it out, hopin' things would all change but everyday feels the same and they're all strange I can't even fully comprehend what I'm feeling I go from brutally destroyed to as high as the ceiling and I can't stop myself from checking on you to see if you've yet showed the world your replacement for me I know that it's wrong and that I'll only get hurt, but not knowing it at all just makes the pain worse Later I'll learn, for now I'm shifting day to day; replaying old memories of us in my brain You were like my best friend, but one month later, when I'm looking at your face I just see a total stranger Feeling like my heart was just stabbed and stabbed and your only excuse was that "it just happened" (Hook) But time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day i get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling Time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day I get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling (Verse 3) It hurt a lot, but I can't let this be a loss I got knocked down but I'll wipe the dust off Ever since I moved I've been having withdraws from everything about you, but it's time to cut you off If I can make a crowd that'll sit back and listen, then I don't need a girl to validate my existence And no matter how much I wish that this was easy, it wont change the way that you decided to treat me I deserve better, and I think you know it too Any humans' monstrous it just depends on to who And if there's one thing that I wanna pass on to you It's that I still think of us in everything that I do No matter all the love and the trust that I gave I felt back stabbed, thrown away, and left for my grave And there's no sense in cryin', begging for you to stay Cause if I wanna be okay, the only way is some time away (INTERLUDE) (Hook) But time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day I get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling Cause' time heals all wounds and it's okay if the pain doesn't end soon Cause' each day I get closer to healing and only time will change all this hurt that I am feeling

(Asylum 213) Another needle underneath the skin One more excuse to start again Two more days till we get paid It only takes one to throw it all away I can't wait for the day When my dreams chase my pain away I can't wait for the world to say You can live, let your reflections fade 'Cause I feel stuck in the past Nothing good ever seems to last But if there's light at the end of this I'll keep on breathing till it goes out (Inhansed) Yeah, yeah Feeling alone, but never reach out for help Feel like a drone, never feel like myself And I'm feeling like my mind is one of a kind But I can't seem to show it when I'm writing these lines I find I need the confidence to pull me back up Before I get stuck in a hole that the flag dug The sedentary life really isn't for me Need to find my drive so I can climb back up on my feet You don't think I can fix the mess that I made? (Nah) You think that my dreams stay locked in a cage? (Yeah) Well, one day every lock's gotta break And one day they'll say my reflections can fade (Asylum 213) I can't wait for the day When my dreams chase my pain away I can't wait for the world to say You can live, let your reflections fade