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Leave
03:24
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You didn't want me to go
But I been begging to leave
When we call on the phone
I never feel me
I hate when we're both alone
But I feel so insecure
I can't take it no more
I think it's time to leave
It's hard to part ways but I'm thinkin' that its best
Lookin' back on older days, you were actin' like I'm less
Been tryna' find a place inside my heart or my chest
To finally bury whats left and put the feelings to rest
From the start I shoulda' knew, everything that you would do
I'd either be a punching bag or the one you'd abuse
I wasn't equal to you, you'd remind me everyday
You would go outta your way just to rain on my parade
I was stupid to stay, I be the first to admit it
But it can never take away all the hurt I was feeling
When you would call me at night. We would bitch about life
Tried to help you every time you say you needed advice
I was tryna' do right, you'd rather leave me on the ground
Every time I built you up you were tearing me down
Wow... I've thought about apologizin' to you,
But it only makes me realize; there ain't nothin' it would do
You didn't want me to go
But I been begging to leave
When we call on the phone
I never feel me
I hate when we're both alone
But I feel so insecure
I can't take it no more
I think it's time to leave
But I believe that you loved me, I honestly do
You'd always do sweet things when it was just me and you
But when an audience was there, you started latching on to
Any ammo you could use just to heighten ya mood
I mean... all the hurtful, awful, shit you would say
They're the strings you would play with my heart everyday
I'd just have to sit and wait until next day came
When you would take all the blame and then you'd beg me to stay
I started crushing one day, it wasn't right off the bat
Nah I loved you as a friend 'fore I saw you like that
Going back to your place and I was telling my feelings
And then you laughed in my face, you called me ugly. It's demeaning
How you treated me, you would just flip so easily
One day you're feeling me, next day we seem to be
Sworn forever enemies, for another couple weeks
If this is how it's gonna be I guess it means I'm gonna leave
You didn't want me to go
But I been begging to leave
When we call on the phone
I never feel me
I hate when we're both alone
But I feel so insecure
I can't take it no more
I think it's time to leave
You didn't want me to go
But I been begging to leave
When we call on the phone
I never feel me
I hate when we're both alone
But I feel so insecure
I can't take it no more
I think it's time to leave
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Fuck it, I'mma snap, it go deeper than rap
Put rappers on blast, you get beat or adapt
Put my hair all plat, need the tracks to match
With my name on plaques, while I'm raking in racks
But I'm too bomb-bastic, and too damn average
I'm too fed up to be two cents grasping
And these fake fucks want me grab bad habits
While not on my level, so I sit back laughing
Plot my own schemes, never changin' for me
You can talk behind scenes, no complainin' from me
But I hope you can see what I'm claiming to be
Is a fact to the T, ain't no faking from me
Ain't no time for the bullshit, that stops now
Remember days when kids would play 'n I would never come out
Was afraid of the conflict now I'm seeking it out
There's no fuckin' way to stop it, ain't it kinda funny how
When I first started out you were
Talkin' down, Talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now, talkin' now
When I first started out you were
Talkin' down, talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now
Motherfuckers showin' up, they tryin' befriending me
You ain't heard the news bitch? I got nothin' but enemies
Yeah, Foul Mouth, we don't fuck with suits, they pretend to see
Trick a kid for they embassy, tryna' snuff out a legacy
I'm in the lab all by myself
But nobody listened to "By Myself"
So I'm sat with the bottle like "a nine might help"
Put the barrel to my head, let it shine my scalp
I don't fuck with these rappers, the lot of 'em ain't gonna blow
But I gotta make it, they hate cause they know
Won't check your tape when you're on the pay roll
Thought I told you bitches I'm a menace, I meant the shit
Old homies back-stab, tell me it's for my benefit
Motherfuckers talkin' down, I'ma eat 'em like venison
No incentive, incentive-less, bitch I do it, it's effortless
When I first started out you were
Talkin' down, Talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now, talkin' now
When I first started out you were
Talkin' down, talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now
Motherfucker why you think you God but you ain't
Get Splatooned, I'mma roll up with the paint
X and Drew we ain't leaders in the game
But we known to breakthrough, when we takin' different lanes
I really don't think you could stand a chance
Or manage the damn damage I give in advance
To motherfuckers hatin' thinkin' they can throw in they hands
When they punches never land like Michael's backyard ranch
'Bout to flip the game like, "fuck this shit"
No Rich Chig, I'mma pull up with a stick
Life's a bitch, but I'm flippin' the script
On these motherfuckers thinkin that they got it in grips
We ain't tight so you paint me in a bad light
Ya act ain't nice, take it, I'm a playwright
You just wanna bitch and you always wanna make fights
Looking back on it now I just wanna say, I
First started out, you were
Talkin' down, Talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now, talkin' now
When I first started out you were
Talkin' down, talkin' down
But now I'm right here you ain't
Talkin' now. You ain't talkin' now
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3. |
Low Blows
02:50
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Don't act like you know
All that I've been through
You always throwing them low blows
Just know that I see you
Rest assured, we'll always be foes
Attention feeds you
That's why you throw them low blows
Them low blows
People talk shit when you're already down
Evil fucks who toxic, but think that they profound
But they never want no problems, once I come around
Got new found respect, they ain't making a sound
Motherfuck a damn snake, I got too much on my plate
To be stopping for the problems that they all tryna' make
My fates at stake, I been tryna' create
A little something outta nothing, so get out my fuckin' way
I see the motives that you tryna hide when you do it
Cause commotion but you fuckin' lying, I can prove it
I can read everything. You don't mean anything
To my life, so at night when you plot them petty things
You just wasting your time, man I'm still gonna shine
I don't need your validation. Bitch I'm making life mine
You just wastin' steady hatin' take in this as a sign
You obsessing over someone you ain't ever fucking liked, so
Don't act like you know
All that I've been through
You always throwing them low blows
Just know that I see you
Rest assured, we'll always be foes
Attention feeds you
That's why you throw them low blows
Them low blows
You can't criticize when you don't even live it
Why the fuck am I terrorized by bullshit opinions?
You should know you jeopardized any chances of winning
I'm fucking livid when I spit it, bet you hear it in the lyrics
You been living in the dark, you been swimming with a shark
Who's too nice to bite. I don't even wanna bark
But I gotta draw a line, so I'm gonna rip apart
Anybody tryna' fly who wanna disrespect my heart
Motherfuckers cant stand I'm not backing it down
From blacked out, cast out, to 'em liking me now
Nah I'm not 'spose to laugh doing victory laps
But I smashed your ass in half, we can leave it at that
You can claim you're holding back; I'm not giving a fuck
Went insane, now you're wack; guess your time has been up
Played the game, lost the match. Don't bother getting back up
Because you've bitten the dust, You're never fuckin' with us, so just
Don't act like you know
All that I've been through
You always throwing them low blows
Just know that I see you
Rest assured, we'll always be foes
Attention feeds you
That's why you throw them low blows
So so
Don't act like you know
All that I've been through
You always throwing them low blows
Just know that I see you
Rest assured, we'll always be foes
Attention feeds you
That's why you throw them low blows
Them low, low, blows
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4. |
Drown (Interlude)
01:45
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Fighting this shit got me frightened and shit
Just one drink in, I don't like it I quit
Let the light head hit like some life end shit
'Bout five drinks in and I'm losing my grip
Who sliding through next?
They be sending out a text
I just wanna be alone
I ain't even getting vexed
Way too busy being stressed
And I'm feeling like I'm gone
Can't feel, I don't know whats real
Mind ain't clear feeling like a mine field
People keep on pushing so I think I might kneel
Will you promise me the power that I need to fight still?
I'm drowning scream for someone to save me
I doubt it, suffocate me I cant breathe
Sink down in my mind, wavy in day dreams
No challenge, I'm about it, hook me up, I have to have it
Lost in my head while they all gettin' blunted
"Take a bit of this fuckin' promise that you'll love it
There's your therapist you been fiending you been wanting"
You been seekin' now you sinkin' now ya brain start to plummet
In a haze, in a blunder, then I start to wonder
If it's worth it, is it workin? Takin' days to recover
And I'm certain that it's hurtin', feelin' caged for another
Painfully stutter, only breaking me further
Always gettin' plastered and they promise that it's magic
I'm just fuckin' nervous, I don't wanna form a habit
Got me feelin' worthless, I'm descent from an addict
And I'm sensing all this shit isn't worth it when they pack it
I don't wanna be bringing you down
But all I ever see, people tellin' me how
It's normal for me, while your head ring loud
To get it figured out, you gotta drown right now
Drown
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5. |
Wait at the Tone
03:03
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I been doin' all I can to try to make it back home
But the longer that it takes, I just feel more alone
There been days I sit and thinking while I'm glued to my phone
Y'all are all together, I'll just call and wait at the tone
Now I don't wanna drag you down, I don't wanna be a burden
Like every time we talk, I just say how I been hurting
I been thinking what would happen if I never make it
For the sake of both of us I think I'll save it and I'll face it
But I'm hating how the odds keep on stacking up against me
Don't wanna play the victim, I been seeing y'all with envy
Don't know whats gotten in me. Don't understand the way I think
'Cause every time I see you all, posted with some drinks
I just feel like no one cares or forgot about me
And when I think if I was there it gets to bothering me
I should be gettin' to sleep all of these memories sting
And I don't wanna take it out and say some shit I don't mean
But its the way that I see things,
And its the way I process
Can't say I've got no shame
In the way that I been acting
I been stuck inside the same place
And I just wanna make some progress
(I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts)
Well maybe its part of the process
I been lookin' in the mirror and I'm making different faces
Wonder when I changed here and wishing I could change it
Wishing I could reach out to talk about my problems
but I do it too often, its annoying and its bothersome
I'll leave a message I been thinking bout a lot
(Its Drew, whats going on?) I just really need to talk
Do you feel the same way that you say that you used to?
Have I gotten annoying, am I plague to the friend group?
Are you positive you're still wanting me your life?
Dog, you all being gone has caused hell through mine
I swear I'm not trying to rely on you, that ain't fair
But I don't think you'll ever know how much I wanna be there
Well I'm here if you ever wanna talk
I'm not going anywhere, if I wanted to or not
If you feel different I just hope you let me know
Before every call I make got me waiting at the tone
But its the way that I see things
And its the way I process
Can't say I've got no shame
In the way that I been acting
I been stuck inside the same place
And I just wanna make some progress
(I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts)
Well maybe its part of the process
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6. |
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I had a dream that you were back
I was at work when I first heard the news
I didn't wanna move felt distraught and confused
I tried to muster up some kinda ruse or excuse
To get myself out of the room once I heard about you
It fuckin' hurts lately I've been blaming myself
I'm ashamed of what I dealt and never reached out to help
None of us knew so I guess you hid it well
But I never fuckin' acted like somebody you could tell
I was going through the same shit the time that it happened
I should've strived for some action, not self satisfaction
If I knew I imagine I would've had to reach out
But I never fucking did I never opened my mouth
To ask how you were doing or to check up on ya
Or to fuckin' hang out- damn the last time I saw ya
Was at Grace' house, didn't even leave with a hug
And now I'm sitting here actin' like I did you enough
When we met we were young, I was so fuckin' cruel
Left you out of fun every time I'd see you at school
And I just wanna cry, now we sayin' goodbye
But ever since the night you died I just wish you survived
Never apologized for the fuckin' way that I acted
We were cool after it happened, but my mind got me captive
And I never got to tell you how I thought and I felt
I was so fuckin' proud that you were doing so well
Lookin' back on it now, I know I always felt bad
But now you're not fucking here and there's no taking it back
All of us miss you, you're always in our family
I failed you every time I made you feel outside or terribly
I wish I was the one that could've reached out to save you
Had I known before you're gone I could be one you relate to
I cant be, I been praying for your family
I been praying for your family
I had a dream that you were back
(I been praying for your family, I been praying for your family)
I was paralyzed, cause' you looked at me terrified
(Praying for your family, I been praying for your family)
My heart was unleashed like no one else
(Praying for your family, I been praying for your family)
I reminisce and want to kiss, the dirt that turned to dust
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7. |
Alive
04:00
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('Cause I can't see your faults, but you can see mine
Obsession with the past, wanna' rewind
You say it takes time and that we'll be fine)
At a crossroad now 'cause I'm proud of myself
But I'm lost though, down, 'cause I'm doubting myself
And I really hate how I've separated myself
From anything and everything, so I'm debating some help
In a whirlwind caught in the middle of the storm
I try to pick a rose and get pricked by a thorn
Satan's in the shadows, raising up his horns
With a contract to sign, and I'm feeling so torn
And my head space is shrouded, everything clouded
My brain ain't the same since the day that I found it
My name has became something I can't explain
But to wrestle this pain is a part of the game
It's sadistic and twisted, it takes all momentum
And kills it, and fills you with different intentions
I'm done with this shit, I'm pullin' the pin
And I'm closing the chapter fore story's begin
'Cause I can't see your faults
But you can see mine
Obsession with the past
Wanna' rewind
You say it takes time
And that we'll be fine
And I don't think you're right but
We'll make it out alive
Said we'll make it out alive
And if we don't we tried but
We'll make it through the night
Said we'll make it out alive
Tryna' make it out alive
Been stuck in a hole, I was digging it up
I gave you my soul and you lifted it up
But no matter what, it's never enough
Falls back to the soil all severed and crushed
Feelings consume me, my life been a movie
Began in October, with packing and moving
Life passing me truly, waiting on the past
Hating on the fact that it changed so fast
Now I'm going through tracks, reminisce and looking back
Was it ever really different than the place that I'm at?
Throw 'em in the trash, final and the scraps
No matter which one, to me, everything is bad
But I'm done being sad, I'm feeling so drained
I wish I could say I was numb to the pain
But I know that I'm not, I knew from the start
I fall and I fall and I'm falling apart
'Cause I can't see your faults
But you can see mine
Obsession with the past
Wanna' rewind
You say it takes time
And that we'll be fine
And I don't think you're right but
We'll make it out alive
Said we'll make it out alive
And if we don't we tried but
We'll make it through the night
Said we'll make it out alive
Tryna' make it out alive
(Make it out alive
We can make it through the night)
Fuckin' hurts when you're first dealin' with it (Make it out alive)
Nothin' worse everything feels different
Mind racing, everything is changing (We can make it out alive)
Mind vacant, no help to face it
And I'm hating, places that I'm in (Tryna' make it through the night)
Put myself in and they prey on me again (Make it out alive, we can make it out alive)
Always fuckin' hurts and I just wanna see the end
Now its only gettin' worse fore the betterment begins
'Cause I can't see your faults
But you can see mine
Obsession with the past
Wanna' rewind
You say it takes time
And that we'll be fine
And I don't think you're right but
We'll make it out alive
Said we'll make it out alive
And if we don't we tried but
We'll make it through the night
Said we'll make it out alive
Tryna' make it out alive
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Inhansed Louisville, Kentucky
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