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betrayal
01:23
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Uh yeah
Blade on my skin
I push 'em all out, don't let none of 'em in
I God damn lost count, don't know where I begin
Keep pushing it in, 'till I'm at my end, yeah
They can not find me
I dug me the bunker to catch me a body
Believe me, its over, I'm already rotting
Don't mean to be cocky when all of y'all watching
I'm done feeling so bad
Finally free from the feelings past
Finally me when they see that I pass
Finally speed with my feet on the gas
I knew it would end like this
So did you, but you tried to forget
Moved on from making marks on my wrist
But the urges getting bigger the older I get
I'm saying
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
I don't wanna die like this
You don't want me to go though
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2. |
wasted life
02:19
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Feeling like a waste of life
Living off of borrowed time
I know what she likes,
when I feel low down
and I chase her eyes
Seeing all my wasted time
Looking at a wasted life
I know what she likes
I'ma take a trip down
just to make her whole night
Been too lost in my own head
They gon' have to make a coffin out my old bed
Didn't see another option, so I hopped in
Falling into all my problems, now I'm sunk in
She ain't catch me when I fell
So I ain't gonna catch her neither
Hands on lock, said no farewell
Said girl come hear me clearer
Don't tell me that you still love me
I'll fill you with the same lies
Go cold every time you cut me
No pain cut through your eyes
I don't want you to go though
You watch as I sink so low
Feel lost? Tear through our photos
You're not just why I came home
You look like you got a vendetta
Only this close cause I let ya
We both got a scoring to settle
Been wasting my time in my mind with a pencil
Feeling like a waste of life
Living off of borrowed time
I know what she likes,
when I feel low down
and I chase her eyes
Seeing all my wasted time
Looking at a wasted life
I know what she likes
I'ma take a trip down
just to make her whole night
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3. |
passion
03:01
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Where did my passion go?
Hold in, now kill me slow
Pretend like I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Just say I'm here to stay,
My thoughts been in the way
My thoughts been in the way
of everything I try to make
I tried to play the ruler with a heavy hand
Now it's over and I think I got a change of plans
Staying sobers only harder when I'm in the trance
Laying lower hoping that I'll never have to meet demands
Spending days in my room
Counting cracks up on the ceiling and I'm thinking I'm soon
And She says I'm acting different now I'm thinking it's true
I don't even bring the writtens out, just step in the booth, uh
Now every motion that I'm going through
Got no emotion I been searching for to hold on to
And I know I'm talking older news
But lately all I find myself is burned out when I talk to you
How'd it lead me this way?
Where I wrestle everyday with a pen and a page
Where I struggle to think on if I'm leaving a stage
or is it really my fate and I'm just living astray, yeah
Where did my passion go?
Hold in, now kill me slow
Pretend like I don't know
I don't know, I don't know
Just say I'm here to stay
My thoughts been in the way
My thoughts been in the way
Of everything I try to make
Got a beautiful girl but I been flirting with death
All this shit I fought to gain for respect, but I guess
It feels so hard to obtain, it's always easier said
I'm always looking for change but now it comes around less, uh
I guess I'm lost in the movement
It just took me off in lucid, now I'm chasing illusions
Been so focused on a deal forgot about the influence
And how I wanted you to heal when you feel all of the music
Somewhere along I guess I lost the path or strayed
I was writing a song and it was much beyond a page
Looking back on them high school days
Jotting raps, seems to me the ink is starting to fade
What makes me different than them?
All the people who had tried now forgetting to pen
All the people who had strived to create from the sin
But they just let it all die, to never touch it again, come on
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4. |
wake up
01:35
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I need to prove myself
I ain't never found my wealth
Thinkin' I'ma lose myself
Still I refuse your help
I need to prove myself
I ain't never found my wealth
Thinkin' I'ma lose myself
Thinkin' I'ma lose myself
Always so sad when I'm reaching it out
Feel you so bad but you're tearing me down
All that I have? Nah you're all that I found
And I beg you to stay as you're watching me drown
Man, above all the girls and above all the games
Nothing above you, the picture I paint
Is nothin compared to what you have became
Take all of my soul just to rinse it away
The water was shallow, I'm falling in deep
Should've got out when it reached to my knees
Now it consume me, you're all that I see
Why you just push me down deeper to sink?
Its perplexing to me, I had a hope
That we could go far with the notes that I wrote
I'd sit in the car and I'd think of a flow
And I'd throw it away before you even know
And I wanna be close, the more that I push
You walking away before I get a look
Tighten the rope, you push me in deeper
You pull 'til I choke and I cough up my liver
I thought that you'd save me, you never delivered
Act like you hate me, you never remember
How often you would take me
How alone I felt without you
I can feel you start to break me
But who am I to doubt you?
How often you would save me
How alone I felt without you
I can feel you start to break me
But who am I to doubt you?
Who am I to doubt you?
Who am I without you?
Wake up
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5. |
wyw4?
02:20
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Whatcha gonna do now though?
When the worlds gone and you slipping so low
When you sitting in the dark cold
All alone, whatcha gonna do now though?
Now why'd you go and get lost?
We been told you if you falling
You ain't ever getting caught
Who you working for now though?
Gotta know, you cant do it by yourself, though
So whatcha working for now though?
When the worlds gone and you slipping so low
When you sitting in the dark cold
All alone, whatcha working for now though?
Now why'd you go and get lost?
We been told you if you falling
You ain't ever getting caught
Who you working for now though?
Gotta know, you cant do it by yourself, though
I find myself in a cycle, always picking myself apart
You can't do it, they don't like you, just sitting inside my heart
I can't muster up the courage or feeling
To wanna leave my fucking room now, 'cause people ain't appealing
I'm done with appearing, now everyone thinks
That I'm a loner, guess I am, I sit alone in a haze
And I'm always feeling tired, I been sleeping for days
And I'm always feeling lonely but I've made it that way
So theres no one to blame, I ain't found any therapist
I can't figure out if I been going any fuckin' where with this
I need a life-line but my pride wont let me reach
Inside my mind, you better die, you better sink
Give up the dream, howling at me
"Cuz, you live inside a fantasy, wake up and smell the coffee beans"
If its doubt, I'm trying not to listen
But the more it speaks out, the more I'm getting the message, like
Whatcha gonna do now though?
When the worlds gone and you slipping so low
When you sitting in the dark cold
All alone, whatcha gonna do now though?
Now why'd you go and get lost?
We been told you if you falling
You ain't ever getting caught
Who you working for now though?
Gotta know, you cant do it by yourself, though
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6. |
heatonmyskin
02:54
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Feel your heat on my skin
Feel your heat on my skin
Feel your heat on my skin
Feel your heat on my skin
Feel your heat on my skin
Feel your heat on my skin
Don't you worry 'bout me, oh no
Can't blame you when you got to go
Now I can't feel and I can't heal
When I'm here all alone
I just had a dream that I just ran into you somewhere
I was speechless ain't believe that you was standing right there
I hesitated, but when I walked to you we embraced and then
I felt a way I haven't for ages, girl I been chasing
Always tryna make it out, tryna find a different route
But the road that I been taking always take me back around
Try to fill the void with other girls, but they don't hear me out
the way that you did, so I'm wishing I could just say sorry now
All the times I got protective, every time I'm insecure
Every time that you felt less than and I didn't have the words
All the lines I wrote about you, know the song just made it worse
When all along you kept me strong and I just dealt out all the hurt
Felt abandoned when I moved, I swear that I could feel it too
Felt like anything I'd do I'd have to put it all on you
And you didn't deserve it, I could see you were hurting
Now I wonder looking back if you feel it was worth it
Haven't felt you in years, yet always feel you in here
Think 'bout the night before I left when we was wiping our tears,
hoping that we would be fine, guess it wasn't the time
So Manda wish I could tell you that I missed hitting rewind
And I still feel alone without ya
I won't ever doubt ya
But wonder where you want to go
-Felt you in years, yet always feel you in here (Feel your heat on my skin)
Think 'bout the night before I left when we was wiping our tears, (Feel your heat on my skin)
hoping that we would be fine, but guess it wasn't the time (Feel your heat on my skin)
Manda, wish I could tell you that I missed hitting rewind
Haven't felt you in years, yet always feel you in here (Don't you worry 'bout me, oh no)
Think 'bout the night before I left, we was wiping our tears, (Can't blame you when you got to go)
hoping that we would be fine, but guess it wasn't the time (Now I cant feel and I cant heal)
So Manda wish I could tell you that I missed hitting rewind (When I'm here all alone)
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7. |
you should'vee called
04:12
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I don't want help
I have no intention of saving myself
I just keep itching to take what I've felt
Start the suspension to heaven or hell
Seeing them listen, my words always fell
on to deaf ears, they don't know, I can tell
Their only fear when the blood start to smear
and how many of tears thats gonna put on they self
Selfish
But I really don't know that I'm anyone better
She told me let her help
My shoulder stay colder than wind in December
Push 'em away
I already know that its hard just to cope with the pain
Leave no one to blame
Breaking your trust, now we're never the same
I'm done with the thinking, forget what you said
My hand started shaking while grabbing the edge
I know I can take it, I been too complacent
Been carving and shaving 'til I'm out of breath
You knew I was next
And all of us knew that we had to be right
It could've been you with nobody to find
But now its just you with a body to find
The scars and the blood make me hard to define
Liquor in the cut, it don't cause me to whine
I watch it drip as it numbs the inside
Lock up the door, I'll stay out of your sight
I've always been sure but tonight is the night
I've always been torn but the thoughts I ignore
Are all starting to pour from the tip of the knife
They wondering why, calling they friends
They beating the door begging to get in
All of my life I have known how I'm going
I swear that I told them that this is the end
I would say sorry and swear that I mean it
When you started reading you'd probably believe it
'Cause although its true that I'd never want to
Man, I always had knew I'd be killing you too
Blade on my skin
Colder than winter, let none of 'em in
Found my way out, don't know where I begin
Keep pushing it in 'till I'm at my end, yeah
I don't wanna die like this
If theres something that I know
This is the end, when you find me again
Man, I swear this how I go
I've known since a kid, middle school days
When we met I would go home and dance with the blade
And if anyone say that it needed to change
I would add some more on my arm and a page
I was having some dreams where I'm ending it all
But my family in need, so I'd slow to a crawl
The more I grow older, the more that I stall
And the more that it hurts knowing I'm gonna fall
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8. |
winter skin
04:03
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All this stress got my face cracked lines breakin out
Less I betray when my mind go south
Always stuck in a haze, how my life turned out
When I find doubt, can't turn it down
I see vivid pictures, poking like a splinter
Skin feels winter, I wonder, will it wither?
I wanna be the winner, but I better feel begginer
A battlefield emerges when my brain be feelin bitter
But I can't complain,
never feel I'm sane, but always act the same
Made rap my flame- purposely I blew it out
I been sitting in my bouts, I don't know what its about
This naivety I build up, I belive in and I touts
not decievin me. Believe to be alright until I shout
They just screenin' me. I'm vicious 'till I bleed out of my mouth,
and they seem to be malicious, I just never weed em out
My winter skin so cold
I made a coffin out of it, I see my breath
This winter, makes skin so froze
I've tried get up out if it, I'm freezing to death
Catching my breath, squeeze in my chest
Head hurts worse than the touch of my flesh
Winter skin cold when I live obsessed
What comes next? just upset
I been burned by the cold and the errors of my soul
While the words got me froze, put my mouth onto the pole
There's a squeeze in my chest
Words hurt worse when they things in my head,
they just things in my head
I'm meticulous with thinking, every feeling lost its meaning
I'm so sick of seeing ceilings, but I don't want you to see me
in this state. Get away, 'fore the snow fallin' down
and when it covers the ground, I got the icicle crown
My winter skin so cold
I made a coffin out of it, I see my breath
This winter, makes skin so froze
I've tried get up out if it, I'm freezing to death
Catching my breath, squeeze in my chest
Head hurts worse than the touch of my flesh
Winter skin cold when I live obsessed
What comes next? just upset
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